Halloween party & deer on the highway

So last night, we were driving back from our friend's Halloween party at his apt in Emeryville. Three of my friends and I dressed up as the four Zodiac elements - we each represented our own sign's element, so I was water as I am a Pisces. On the way home, I was driving on highway 280 with two of my friends in the car. It was about 5am. At one point, I put the highbeams on because the highway was really dark and there were no other cars on the road. All of a sudden, I saw something up ahead, partly in our lane. It was a deer! I swerved around it, into the other lane. Half an hour later, I was still in shock and thanking God that I was awake and alert enough to swerve around the deer, chillin halfway in our lane on the highway at 5am! We were near woods so probably why the deer was there, but not sure why it was crossing the highway. All I know is that our car would have been totaled, and I don't know what condition the three of us would have been in. I know other people who have hit deer before and their car was totaled. And I am not sure if they were driving the 80mph that I was driving.
I am SO thankful that I am alive! And that our car is in one piece too!!! Phew!!!

song of the moment & how I'm feeling

Jewel "Good Day"

(SHE IS SO AMAZING LIVE! REALLY TALENTED!!!)




I say to myself, as I smile at the wall, just let myself fall

It's gonna be all right, no matter what they say
It's gonna be a good day, just wait and see
It's gonna be OK, cause I'm OK with me
It's gonna be, it's gonna be

As long as we laugh out loud
Laugh like we're mad
Cause this crazy, mixed up beauty is all that we have
Because what's love but an itch we can't scratch, a joke we can't catch
God, but still we laugh

Change

We either adapt to change, or we get left behind. And sometimes, the more things change, the more they stay the same. It hurts to change, but sometimes change can be really good.
~Greys Anatomy

Last days living in San Francisco

Last week of work: Butterfly toast, champagne gift, coffee with Karyn and Megs, taking pictures with everyone, toast to me at Scott Howard on last day

Last Friday night in SF: toast with roommates and friends at home, slept at 2am

Last night in SF (Saturday): wine toast with bff and Emily roomie- to wonderful memories of my life in SF and new memories and life in LA! North Beach with bff and Megs, toast out on the town - last night living in the city! Slept at 4am...

Sunday morning moving out.....

Summing up how I am feeling......
Walk On - U2



And if your glass heart should crack,
And for a second you turn back
Oh no, be strong

Walk on, What you got, they can't steal it, No they can't even feel it

Walk on, Stay safe tonight

You're packing a suitcase for a place, None of us has been, A place that has to be believed, To be seen

A singing bird, In an open cage, Who will only fly, Only fly for freedom

Walk on, What you got, They can't deny it, Can't sell it or buy it

And I know it aches, How your heart it breaks, And you can only take so much
Walk on

Leave it behind, you've got to leave it behind

Home
I can't say where it is
But I know I'm going

look at my imdb page today!

Woohooo!!! So awesome :-)

STARmeter:

2,641% since last week

and Karyna posted on my IMDB message board:
Anisha Bhagat is the next big thing. Watch out Hollywood! Here she comes!

haha i love you! She's my biggest fan :-) Karyna kept checking the site for my name and page forever! She initially found me on IMDB before I found my page! And she is the one who told me! hahaha muah!

My IMDB and credits!

The Internet Movie Database (IMDB) is the biggest entertainment database in existence. It has info on anyone and anything in the entertainment industry. For as long as I can remember, I've been researching that site for film classes, papers, and mostly personal interest. My first goal and dream on my road to Hollywood fame and fortune was to be credited and get my own page. That gets you on the industry radar, and makes you legitimate. And now, after working on a few film sets, my first credit has been posted! It's my first stepping stone, and just the beginning of so much more to come! I am ECSTATIC!!!

From the main site, www.imdb.com, type in my full name, Anisha Bhagat, it pulls up my page (I have 3 pictures on there). Or the direct site is http://imdb.com/name/nm2759622/

In addition to these credits, on google, another one of my credits pops up that is not yet on imdb:
Martin Lawrence Presents: 1st Amendment Standup Television show .....Anisha Bhagat. Production Assistant (at the bottom of the page with the heading for my part of the crew: Below the Line)
http://tv.yahoo.com/martin-lawrence-presents-1st-amendment-standup/show/41648/castcrew

Oh and I am moving out of San Francisco next week, to San Jose for a few months, and then moving to Los Angeles in January, to do the Hollywood thing :-) IM SUPER EXCITED!!!

the hardest thing

I think that when we are living and working somewhere, it's hard at first, as beginnings always are, scary, hard, but then we get used to it. It becomes a routine, and something familiar. Then soon we are liking it, even loving it - work, roommates, house, city, so then when deciding to move or take a new job or be in a new city, that is another new beginning, and again, it is hard, scary, and I think that is what I am feeling right now. The sense of being comfortable and liking where I am, the city, my roommates, my coworkers, my friends, my job, and moving to LA, a new city with new roommates and friends and work, it's scary, and it's making me nervous, anxious, and a little stressed.

I think it comes down to, when we are to deviate from what we are comfortable with, take a big step out of our comfort zone, take a risk, a leap, a chance, it is scary. It is nervewracking. It makes me anxious, and stressed. But I made this decision over the course of a few months, and sat on the decision for weeks before making it final. And I feel happier and more excited each day that it gets closer to that decision to take place, but at the same time, as the time approaches to leave my comfort zone in SF, it is also scary and stressful. But I made the decision, and I am sticking to it because I know I made the right now, and while it's hard now to leave what I know, love, and am comfortable with, it would be even harder to do that months or years from now when I am even more deep rooted here with work, home, friends, roommates, etc. And my LA decision is one that will be the best for me long term on all levels and areas, esp work.

At least I recognize that the hardest thing is to break away from what we are most comfortable with, and often times, we give up what we want to really do because it's scary, and we'd rather do what we are comfortable doing, being, living, etc.

It's sink or swim time. And I plan to swim. All the way.

fav song of the month

Lifehouse "First Time"



We're both looking for something
We've been afraid to find
It's easier to be broken
It's easier to hide

Looking at you, holding my breath
For once in my life I'm scared to death
I'm taking a chance letting you inside

I'm feeling alive all over again
As deep as the sky under my skin
Like being in love, she said, for the first time
Maybe I'm wrong, I'm feeling right
where I belong with you tonight
Like being in love to feel for the first time

The world that I see inside you
Waiting to come to life
Waking me up to dreaming
Reality in your eyes

Looking at you, holding my breath
For once in my life I'm scared to death

I'm taking a chance letting you inside

I'm feeling alive all over again
As deep as the sky under my skin
Like being in love, she said, for the first time
Maybe I'm wrong, I'm feeling right
where I belong with you tonight
Like being in love to feel for the first time

We're crashing
Into the unknown
We're lost in this
But it feels like home

I'm feeling alive all over again
As deep as the sky that's under my skin
Like being in love, she said, for the first time
Maybe I'm wrong, I'm feeling right
where I belong with you tonight
Like being in love to feel for the first time

Like being in love she said for the first time
Like being in love to feel for the first time

awards

"Solitude," the film I worked on as a Production Assistant for the 48 Hour Film Fesitival, one of the producers called last night to inform us that our film took 3 awards in the festival/competition. We tied for best cinematography (the overall look and shots/angles of the film), best sound design, and best original score. I AM ECSTATIC!!!!!!!!!!

Great pic of me from the screening & premiere:

http://www.flickr.com/photos/immaterialgirl/1190093011/in/photostream/

Our film screening for 48 hour film festival!

Hey y'all,
Last weekend I worked on a film shoot for the 48 Hour Film Project Festival. This festival and competition is held in numerous cities each year, like San Francisco's was last month, but I worked on a film for submission at the San Jose festival. There are two nights of screening at Camera 12 (independent theater on 2nd street) in downtown San Jose. The total teams & films in the competition are split between two nights, Wed and Thurs, and our film is screening in the set of films on Thursday night (today Aug 16th) at 7pm and 9:30pm, same screenings each time, so more films than just ours. Each film is a maximum of 7 minutes, and follows the guidelines, genre, prop, etc that we were given to each team of filmmakers (everyone had something unique) at the kickoff last Friday and turned in at film drop off location on Sunday (aka 48 hours :-)

I will be at the 7pm screening, as both the 7pm and 9:30pm screenings are exactly the same at both times. Come support our independent film! Woohooo! If you are free, in the area, and want to go, let me know, email or call me, and I'll give you details.

I think one of the coolest things ever is going to a movie screening and buying a ticket for your own film! Now THAT is AWESOME! :-) Hope you can come out and support!

Here is the website if you want to check it out: http://www.48hourfilm.com/sanjose/

And our film is listed under Group B: Chula Vista Entertainment, Alex Potter

And if you come tonight, do get there early or buy tickets ahead of time! It's supposed to sell out! woohoo!!
xoxoxo

moving to LA

advice from my housemate, new chapter, my thoughts and feelings, taking a risk, always regret it, always will have fear or nervousness but just have to jump no matter how tough Hollywood is, sink or swim.

cookies

sugar free oreo cookies are gross. better to eat the real thing less often. some sugar free stuff is not bad at all. these were uneatable. eww gross! things with splenda are good. things with aspartame are bad for you.

off to the usual work, gym, friends awesomeness of my weekdays :-)

The 48 Hour Film Project

I'm working as a Production Assistant this weekend on my friend's film he is directing for the 48 hour film project festival in San Jose. We start Friday night, today, and end Sunday night, having written, shot, and edited a 7 minute maximum short film, and submitted it in to the festival. It will be judged on many different categories, and there are 14 awards given, so we are hoping to get one! There will be two days of screenings at Camera 12 in downtown San Jose, Wednesday the 15th and Thursday the 16th, 7 & 9:30pm. Our film is in the Thursday set of screenings. I am very excited for this creation we are about to make in less than two days from start to finish! We will literally pick our genre tonight, find out what props/lines are to be used creatively in our film, and it will be the beginning of 48 hours of no sleep, but we can always sleep later :-)

I love being on set. There's just this feeling, everytime I start working on a film shoot, no matter if 1 day or 2 weeks, whether the crew is big and famous from LA, a student thesis film with an NYU crew, film festivals and competitions, or small, personal films for my friends and I, it doesnt matter. Being on set is just AMAZING and SO FUN! I prefer the smaller, more personal sets, where we all eat together, sleep on set together (the little sleep that we do get) but it's so fun because it's so much more personal! Instead of working on a big, famous set, like the Martin Lawrence produced project I did last fall, where we know most of the crew, mostly just by name, and are close to very few people, usually those you are working directly with, and then at the end of the day, we all go home, and report back at crew call time. But on small shoots and crews, we all stay together, rooming in hotel rooms if the location is out of town, or sprawled all over the director's living room, sleeping when we can, eating all the time, and just having a total blast and general good time, no matter how busy we are or how hard we all work, the end product makes it totally worth it, but the steps we took to get there are memories for life :-)

I remember once in college when I worked on a grad student's film, I had been up most of the night doing work and helping with the script and location, so the next morning, when the actors had their call, i took a nap, literally in the hallway of the set, with people walking over me, and I was snuggled up in my blanket, catching a few zzzz's. :-)

Talk about the great memories!

in love

I want to be in love. Don’t most people? But as wonderful as it is, it’s also scary. Makes me hesitant to enter into that stage, that relationship, and commitment on all levels, physically, mentally, and mostly emotionally. But it’s still worth it. Every relationship, friendship, family, whether 3 weeks, months, years, or lifetimes, you learn, you grow, you discover, you treasure, and make incredible memories, and while there are good times and bad, it’s all worth it. It is true – Better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all…..just that experience of love and being in love, no matter what kind of love, a friendship, a family, a romantic one, a deep soul touching love….the experience and life’s lessons make it all worth it, whether it lasts just for today, or for forever.

Thoughts on career loves

When you love doing something and working on something SO much that you dont care what the pay is or who you're working with or that you are sleeping with camera equipment in your hotel room, and that makes you even more excited....well then you know what you want to spend your life and career doing :-) So I'd say I have a pretty good idea hahah! I think you have to find a combination of what you love and what you are good at - and that is what will stick and have you enjoying your career and life!

earthquake!

Who's room was shaking at 4am?

MINE WAS!!

Is it just me, or are a lot of these happening recently....like in clusters, but more often....

oooooooo

scary :-/

P.S. Happy Friday :-)

According to a preliminary report from the U.S. Geological Survey, the earthquake registered 4.2 on the Richter Scale and occurred at 4:42 a.m. The quake was centered 2 miles east-northeast of Oakland's city-center. The last time an earthquake of similar size hit the Bay Area was March 1, when a 4.2 magnitude quake originated in Walnut Creek.