Saturday, August 9, 2008

how I feel "In This Life"

Watch the beautiful Video :-)

by Delta Goodrem

I was nurtured I was sheltered
I was curious and young
I was searching for that something
Trying to find it on the run
Oh and just when I stopped looking
I saw just how far I'd come
In this life
In this life

You give me love
You give me light
Show me everything that's been happening
I've opened up my eyes
Following
Three steps fight an honest fight
Two hearts that can start a fire
One love is all I need
In this life

I have faltered I have stumbled
I have found my feet again
I've been angry I've been shaken
Found a new place to begin
My persistence to make a difference
Has led me safe into your hands
In this life
In this life

I was put here for a reason
I was born into this world
And I'm living and I'm believing
I was meant to be your girl
In this life


Thursday, July 24, 2008

NYC - I am a settler :-)

"There are roughly three New Yorks. There is, first, the New York of the man or woman who was born there, who takes the city for granted and accepts its size, its turbulence as natural and inevitable. Second, there is the New York of the commuter--the city that is devoured by locusts each day and spat out each night. Third, there is New York of the person who was born somewhere else and came to New York in quest of something. Commuters give the city its tidal restlessness, natives give it solidity and continuity, but the settlers give it passion."
~E.B. White "Here is New York"




Me walking across the Brooklyn Bridge

Monday, July 21, 2008

I'm Alive - life is good :-)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2y10J2O1oTA

"Take a walk
We can hardly breathe the air
Look around
Its a hard life everywhere
People talk but they never really care
On the streets theres a feeling of dispair
Everyday theres a brand new baby born
Everyday theres a sun to keep you warm
and its alright
Yeah, its alright
Im alive
And I dont care much for words of doom
If its love you need
Well I got the room
Its a simple thing came to me
When I found you
Im aliveLook around theres a flower on every street
Look around and its growing at your feet
Everyday you can hear me say
Im alive
I wanna take all that life has got to give
All I need is someone to share it with
I got love and love is all I really need to live
Im alive"
~David Cook

Monday, July 14, 2008

NYC Batman premiere....just minutes from my apt!


The Dark Knight’s Star-Studded NYC Premiere
by The Gossip Girls, Celebrity-Gossip.net

With the normally red carpet turned funeral black in honor of late actor Heath Ledger, the New York City premiere of “The Dark Knight” turned out to be quite the star studded affair.
Held at AMC Loews Lincoln Center on Monday evening (July 14), the movie’s stars Christian Bale, Morgan Freeman and Maggie Gyllenhaal were joined by Hollywood guests ranging from Blake Lively and Lauren Conrad to Emile Hirsch and Edie Falco.
And with Heath’s role as The Joker receiving rave reviews, the “Brokeback Mountain” actor’s co-stars have had nothing but praise for their fallen friend.
“He was wonderful. He was talented beyond belief,” said Bale, who plays Batman in the movie. “His immersion in the character was a greatly satisfying thing to work opposite.”
Maggie Gyllenhaal, who plays attorney Rachel Dawes in “The Dark Knight”, added: “He did something that is difficult even for every great actor. It’s still very unusual to hit a stride that is so free that you can really do no wrong. There’s no way to judge what he did. He was absolutely free.”
“I would love to be right here with him. And I thought I would be,” Bale added.

Saturday, June 21, 2008

Oprah speaks at Stanford commencement - some quotes

Winfrey challenged the crowd to think about the future and what each of them can do to create positive change in the world.
"The secret I've learned to getting ahead is being open to the lessons," she said. "It's being able to walk through life eager and open to self-improvement and that which is going to best help you evolve, because that's really why we're here - to evolve as human beings."
Winfrey was reflective, honest and self-deprecating. In short, she was the same Oprah who over a 22-year period has won three dozen Emmy Awards.
"I believe that there is a lesson in almost everything that you do and every experience," she told the new graduates. "Getting the lesson is how you move forward, is how you enrich your spirit. And trust me; I know that inner wisdom is more precious than wealth. The more you spend it, the more you gain."
"Money is pretty nice," she said, drawing knowing laughter from the crowd. "I like money. It's good for buying things. But having a lot of money does not automatically make one a successful person. What you want is money and meaning - you want your work to be meaningful, because meaning is what brings the real richness to your life."

Thursday, May 22, 2008

David Cook is the new American Idol!!!

I'm SO HAPPY AND EXCITED!!!!!!!!
Since auditions and Hollywood week, I had my eyes, ears, and heart on David Cook. He was my favorite since day 1 all the way to the finale today, where he won by a landslide 12 million votes, and deserved it more than anyone else! Not only is he mature and versatile in his singing and demeanor, he seems most ready to take on the tough music industry and really record an amazing album. I LOVE how he can turn any song into a rock rendition, and is a total rockstar, inside and out. And when I saw him go from singing Mariah Carey (his rendition of my all time favorite Mariah song "Always Be My Baby" is the ringtone on my cell phone) to The Turtles to Lionel Richie to Michael Jackson to Phantom of the Opera, I knew that his vocal range and diversity in song choice and arrangement made him the best contestant to win Idol. And I just love him since the beginning and have been voting weekly for him to stay in - and now he's won! My favorite thing about him is how he picks songs and bands that aren't the most popular, that not everyone knows, and that he takes risks to sound different and choose an offbeat arrangement. And he has proved to be a superstar each and every time, with every song, and I know he will go on to do fabulous and great things in music...I will definitely be buying his album, seeing him in concert, and following his career! He reminds me of Chris Daughtry - my other Idol fav :-)

"The grown-up rocker triumphed over the smooth-voiced kid as David Cook claimed the American Idol title Wednesday. The former bartender from Blue Springs, Missouri, beat out David Archuleta of Murray, Utah, to win the seventh season of the show. Host Ryan Seacrest says 97.5 million votes were cast, beating the previous record by 23 million votes. Cook won 56 percent of the vote, while Archuleta got 44 percent. Cook beat Archuleta by 12 million votes. Cook was overcome by emotion, bending toward the stage after his name was announced."

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

BFF Priya visits me in NYC!!!

So my best friend Priya visited me in New York a couple weeks ago. We BFF's had SUCH a blast together from walking, shopping, and eating chocolate on 5th Avenue to going to her friend's NYU film screening to eating all the time at all times of the day and night to having coffee at cute cafes to taking the subway to hanging out at fun clubs and lounges and dancing the night away to late night chats with champagne to shopping in Soho to being a tourist in Little Italy and drinking Boba tea as well as more shopping in Chinatown. It was very spontaneous - she booked her flight on Tuesday and flew out Wednesday morning from San Francisco to New York. We had a fabulous 4 days together :-) I've been here less than two months and 3 friends and lots of family have visited me from out of town, including BFF Priya and my parents this past week, and more are coming from Europe and other parts of the US - later this summer, so if you come visit me too, we shall have a blast! They are proof of that :-) This really is the greatest city! woohoo!!

Friday, April 18, 2008

The Pope in New York City!

Hey y'all,
The Pope is in NYC today!!! and for the rest of the weekend as well. Woohoo excitement in my city!
For those traveling around the city, esp by car or bus, tons of streets are closed off, so give yourself extra time. Subways should be fine.

http://www.speroforum.com/site/article.asp?id=11735

Today he was at the U.N. And tomorrow, one stop is at St. Patrick's Cathedral - just 2 miles from my apt!!!
(isn't that exciting fellow roomies?!)

ooooooooohh!!!!
and Sunday he speaks at Yankees Stadium.

:-)

Friday, April 4, 2008

I love NYC :-) my new home!



Thursday, April 3, 2008

leaving for NY...taking risks and giving back :-)

Hi y'all,
As I close my suitcases and put my bags in the car, I send you this email before leaving for the airport.
I am moving to New York City, my biggest dream since I was 16, and I'm now I'm finally making it come true.
So much is going through my mind, so much excitement and anxiety, but one thought really stands out that I want to share with you, about risks. And a quote at the bottom that sums it all up, and one we should all follow for life :-)

Someone I love recently asked me if i am someone who takes risks, or who will start taking risks. I wasn't sure at the time, but now i've realized, the answer is yes. And i think a lot of it comes from moving so much, different cities, states, houses, and schools, having to be brave, start over, meet new people, make new friends, over and over, my entire life thus far.
Until college, it was out of my control, due to my Dad's job transfers, but post college, it has been due to my choice to travel and live in cities I have always wanted to live in, follow my dreams, achieve my goals, etc.

And now I am leaving the comfort and stability of my friends and family in CA, to move 3000 miles to NY, by myself, without a secured job or finalized apt, and doing everything on my own, with my goal and dream to live in Manhattan, and support myself 100%
that is a risk

and this quote motivates me to always take risks:
Twenty years from now, you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than the ones that you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails.
Explore. Dream. Discover.
~Mark Twain

Also, a SUPER AWESOME video shared with me by my BFF (and initially given to her by Erwin - thanks yo!) is a must watch - from an Oprah guest lecture - the best summary of how to live life to the fullest - only 10 mins long but so worth it!!! http://youtube.com/watch?v=kjZwhcWY-KE

Now to keep in touch with me - email, AIM/ichat, phone calls, text, snail mail letters, and video chat! So download skype, video skype, or get a webcam (or if you have a built in one), we can talk on video chat! woohoo!! It's like I'm right there :-)

And btw, huge opportunities to give back are coming up: YOU CAN SAVE LIVES and MAKE A HUGE DIFFERENCE!!!
1) Idol Gives Back, April 9th, FOX at 8pm: http://www.americanidol.com/idolgivesback/
(watch the promotional video on this site - it made me cry!)
2) And March of Dimes's - March for Babies: http://www.marchforbabies.org/
(go to the donate tab and help to save babies!

I hope all is fabulous with you and much love and hugs to all,
And come visit me in the Big Apple!
xoxoxo

Thursday, March 13, 2008

tragedy continues

After I sent out my email about the tragedy with my Uncle, as well as the drug reaction I had, I started hearing back from other people who knew of similar situations, just as horrible and tragic, like perfectly healthy people who mixed medications without knowing, and went into a coma and died.
JUST CRAZYYYY!!!!

STAY AWAY FROM PRESCRIPTIONS MEDS / MIXING MEDS!!!!!!
as much as possible
and read to inform yourself

do not blindly trust your doctor!!!!

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

tragedy - everyone be careful

*I'm writing this so that you and your loved ones can avoid being in a similar helpless situation, and possibly save yours or someone else's life. Be VERY careful of what medications you are being prescribed, whether you are taking one, or more than one*

Some doctors don't pay attention to drug interactions, or don't pay attention to signs of a reaction from mixing/taking multiple medications. As in the case of my Uncle, he was prescribed more than one medication, and the doctor even saw signs of a reaction and ignored them, and my Uncle passed away today :-(
I'm more angry than anything. This is so unnecessary and it takes peoples lives more than we realize.


DON'T MIX MEDICATIONS unless you know what you are taking - and even if your doctor seems to know what they are talking about, READ online about it, and you will be amazed to find people in similar situations, and people whose lives have been ruined by medication(s).

I recently took an antibiotic for a sinus infection (and I couldn't even finish the course of Rx cause I couldn't function due to side effects - I am allergic to the medicine now) and now weeks later, it has completely wrecked my body and I am still recovering from the long term side effects. When I read up online about it, I found out that people who had taken this drug had suffered serious neurological damage, and other problems. I read like 500 testimonies- all negative.

So before you take anything, no matter how fabulous you think doctor is, read up on it, esp if you are taking more than one medication.
Don't be a victim, in a big or small way, from the health care system that pumps us full of drugs without knowing the reactions and interactions. By default, "okay lets try this drug." Avoid it if you can.

P.S. If you can, natural meds are the way to go.


Tuesday, March 11, 2008

exciting news

My friend got into Harvard for grad school (although she may choose to go to UCLA :-) and my other friend is marrying her college sweetheart in Florence, Italy, where they first started dating :-)

So happy for wonderful life news!


Friday, February 22, 2008

Dance & music is life :-)

If you love dance music & dance moves, you will love this ~ it premiered on American Idol tonight!

Paula Abdul's Official Music Video "Dance Like There's No Tomorrow"



OMG I LOVE DANCING!!!!!!!!!
:-)
DANCE FOR LIFE!!!
wooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!

Thursday, February 21, 2008

risks

someone I love recently asked me if i am someone who takes risks, or who will start taking risks. I wasnt sure at the time, but now i've realized, the answer is yes

and i think a lot of it comes from moving so much, different cities, states, houses, and schools, having to be brave, start over, meet new people, make new friends, over and over, my entire life thus far.
Until college, it was out of my control, due to my Dad's job transfers, but post college, it has been due to my choice to travel and live in cities I have always wanted to live in, follow my dreams, achieve my goals, etc.


And now I am leaving the comfort and stability of my friends and family in CA, to move 3000 miles to NY, by myself, without a job or apt, and doing everything on my own, with my goal and dream to live in Manhattan, and support myself 100%

that is a risk

and this quote motivates me to always take risks:

Twenty years from now, you will be more disappointed by the things that you didnt' do than the ones that you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails.
Explore. Dream. Discover.
~Mark Twain


Wednesday, February 20, 2008

Airlines ~ Pack Less or Pay More

By GARY STOLLER, USA TODAY
A growing number of fliers are finding there's a price to pay for checking bags. Airlines are charging for bags that once were free to check and raising prices for fliers with lots of luggage, overweight bags and oversized bags. In May, United Airlines will become the first of the big traditional U.S. carriers to switch from two free checked bags to one. Last month, Southwest Airlines and ATA Airlines switched from three free checked bags to two.

Beginning May 5, United will charge passengers with non-refundable tickets on domestic flights $25 for a second checked bag and $100 per bag for a third, fourth and fifth checked bag. United now charges $85 for a third checked bag, the highest rate of any airline. Not all United fliers will pay for a second bag. Passengers flying in first or business class and those who have elite status in United's frequent-flier program or its Star Alliance partner program will not be charged.

Also on May 5, the airline will increase its overweight-bag rate (for bags weighing more than 50 pounds) from $50 to $100.
United says that one of every four passengers checks a second bag.
Most of the cost savings will come from burning less fuel because of fewer bags and reduced weight in the cargo hold.

Copyright © 2008 ABC News Internet Ventures

Thursday, February 14, 2008

Love Day - Valentines Day

We have a lot of love in our lives within many different relationships.
The love from friends, family, teachers, mentors, romantic, and more.
So just because you do not have one of these, does not mean you don't have love or aren't loved. Just having one person, one loving relationship, whatever type of relationship may be, is a lot. Just one.
Everything else is extra love and blessings.
Love with your heart and soul. It's worth it.




Wednesday, December 12, 2007

New Years in Tahoe!

We booked our hotel for New Years in South Lake Tahoe!
It has a heated pool, hot tub, and sauna, and views of the frozen Lake!

It's going to be about 15 degrees in Tahoe hahhahah

We'll definitely be snowboarding with goggles so we can see through the snow!
I need to go shopping for ski/snowboarding gear!

Excitement!!!!!

:-)

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

NBA Game tonight!

I am going to the Warriors game tonight vs the San Antonio Spurs! I get to see Tony Parker play! YAYYY SO EXCITED!!!
Going with my BFF! She has season tickets!!!! YAYYYYYAYAYYAY!!!
:-)

Monday, December 10, 2007

end of Greys episode

Sooo I finally saw the end of the Greys episode
and she fixes the monitor in the OR, and saves his patient, wooooo!
and he says to her,
"So Santa Cruz isn't just a party school after all!"

hee hee hee
bunch of geniuses, eh?
OH YEAHHHHHHHHH
;-)

THATS MY COLLEGE BABY!!!!!!!!!!!

Friday, December 7, 2007

Grey's Anatomy & Santa Cruz

SOOO on Greys Anatomy last night......
There is this one part in the OR (operating room for those of you who dont watch medical dramas or comedies)
where the nurse needs to fix this computer thing cause the monitor went off, and Dr. Shephard (Patrick Dempsey) is inside the girls brain using a scope, and they need the monitor back to see, cause they can't just pull the scope out blindly cause it will damage brain tissue, and they are in the middle of her tumor or something.
So the nurse looks at the computer, and tells him that she took 3 semesters of computer science before she transferred to nursing, and can probably fix it or at least try to.
So Patrick Dempsey/Mc "Dreamy" asks her : "3 semesters of computer science - what college did you go to"
and she says "Santa Cruz"
and then he says "That's a party school"
and she's like "Are you going to insult my education or let me help you save your patient"
and then he looks around the room at the other doctors, nurses, etc, and he's like "Can anyone do better than 3 semesters of computer science from Santa Cruz?"
and no one responds, so he's like, "okay then, give it a shot"
and she says "I appreciate the vote of confidence"

HAHAHAHHAHA

That's my school! UCSC baby!!!! MY COLLEGE!!!
partayyyyyy
:-)

Wednesday, November 28, 2007

Spice Girls concert & NSSN

OMG! I am going to the Spice Girls Farewell Tour concert on Dec 4th here in San Jose! My ticket is $120, but it's so worth it! I've been listening to them since I was like 12! And it's their last tour, so YAYYYY!!! Going with my friend from college, and we are going to dress up like one of the Spice Girls and go together! YAYAYAYAY SOOO EXCITED!!!!

And then 3 days later on Dec 7th, Not So Silent Night in San Francisco!!!!!

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

thoughts on being active & playing sports

In the upcoming weeks, I'm starting rock climbing at an indoor gym (at least more often than the one time I did it), go bowling (possibly on a weekly basis as my BFF wants to start a bowling club! How fun!), ice skating (more so during the Xmas holidays, but anytime is always good! I started when I took lessons in Boston when I was 3 or 4 years old), and then snowboarding for New Years in Tahoe! (that will be the second time attempting that after doing it with my dearest friend in Ohio two years ago ;-)
I'm also buying a punching bag, trampoline, and jump rope. This is so fun! I love doing new things to stay & be active, and love trying, playing, & experiencing new sports, preferably playing, but also watching as well :-) Football and hockey are my favorites to watch on TV but I love live sports games even more. And then to play, I alternate on a pretty regular basis between machines at the gym, swimming, and running in the gym or outdoors. I LOVE trying new sports, especially outdoors, so that is why I am really excited about going bowling, ice skating, rock climbing, and snowboarding in the next few weeks, even though I've done them all before. So for other sports I haven't tried before, I'm ready to try new ones! So bring it on!

Monday, November 26, 2007

my current favorite romantic song

Thought I'd share this with y'all, for all you current romantics, past or future romantics
or for any girls who just want to hear a beautiful song to make you feel fabulous
and hopefully bring a smile to your face, and to your day
:-)
Loveeee it!!!!!!!



Best Days Lyrics

Thursday, November 22, 2007

taking risks, trying new things, being daring

It's always fun, interesting, and exciting to do and try new things, and of course, meet new people.

I'm so glad I stepped out of my comfort zone and pushed my boundaries, even in a small way, that really feels bigger than it seems.


what will happen if we do not try and take risks and chances in life? whether big or small.....
don't be afraid - you create your own destiny

Friday, November 16, 2007

strength

No matter how tough you are, no matter how much self worth, confidence, esteem and respect you have for yourself, and no matter how many walls you put up to protect yourself, to stay safe, and keep people out, sometimes it gets tiring of being so tough. And there are some days, some moments, when all you want is someone, any one person in your life, who loves you and cares about you, to just be there for you, to just talk to you, to just hold you. And keep holding you. And instead of feeling afraid like you do all the other times in your life when you want to let your guard down but you don't, this time you feel safe.
And in that moment, everything is okay, and everything else will be okay. And you remind yourself of that feeling for those times when you are on your own, or alone, or concentrating so hard on being independent and tough, to keep yourself from being vulnerable or getting hurt. But I think sometimes letting your guard down and making yourself vulnerable is actually the strongest thing you can do, and bravest part of your character.


"You don't have to be tough of every minute of every day. It's okay to let down your guard. In fact, there are moments when that is the best thing to do."
~Greys Anatomy

Sunday, November 11, 2007

Not So Silent Night lineup announced

LIVE 105 Not So Silent Night 2007
with Modest Mouse, Jimmy Eat World, Angels & Airwaves, Spoon, Paramore & some local band!
Bill Graham Civic Center - San Francisco


I wish the Killers were playing! like last year!
but oh well, still a kick ass lineup!

esp Jimmy Eat World - seen them twice - they ROCK!!!!

literally

:-)


Veteran Portland indie-rock band Modest Mouse will top the bill at this year's addition of Live 105's Not So Silent Night , the radio station announced today. Also appearing Dec. 7 at the Bill Graham Civic Auditorium in San Francisco will be Jimmy Eat World, Angels & Airwaves, Spoon, Paramore and the winner of the local band competition. Tickets for $39.50 go on sale at 10 a.m. Sunday at www.ticketmaster.com and all Ticketmaster outlets. A "very limited" amount of Bud Light Almost All Access Passes, which include early entrance, a reserved seat and free food, will be available for $105.

The third time proves to be the charm for Modest Mouse, who move to the headlining slot after two previous appearances further down the bill at the station's annual holiday event. The other bands are all making their first visits to NSSN. Modest Mouse and Spoon both already have performed multiple times in the Bay Area this year, including in September at the inaugural Treasure Island Music Festival. This will be Jimmy Eat World's first major performance in the area since the release of the new "Chase This Light," following a short set for Live 105 last month in front of about 100 fans at San Jose's Blank Club. Angels & Airwaves, featuring ex-Blink 182 lead singer Tom DeLonge, will be making its first Bay Area appearance this year, riding high on the success of its current single "Everything's Magic." Paramore, whose current hit single is "Misery Business," is performing a sold-out show at the Warfield on Thursday. Live 105 Activists (and you know who you are) can purchase tickets in advance from 10 a.m. Thursday to 5 p.m. Friday at www.live105.com.

By Shay Quillen

Friday, November 9, 2007

Diwali



Happy Diwali! (Indian New Year) & the Festival of Lights!
:-)


Thursday, November 8, 2007

Starbucks


I LOVE Starbucks in general, but especially during Christmas time. And yes it isn't even Thanksgiving, but it's already decorated for Christmas.

And I just love it
:-)

My best friend's dance show

My BFF Priya's dance show this Saturday - it's being sponsored by ZeeTV!!!!!
And Sharmishta Roy - huge art director in Bollywood - has put the show together!!! YAYY!!
COME OUT AND SUPPORT!!!!




Sunday, November 4, 2007

Beautiful song & video

One Republic "Apologize"

Friday, November 2, 2007

song of the moment & how I'm feeling



I'm broke but I'm happy
I'm poor but I'm kind
I'm short but I'm healthy, yeah
I'm high but I'm grounded
I'm sane but I'm overwhelmed
I'm lost but I'm hopeful baby
What it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be fine fine fine

I'm young and I'm underpaid
I'm tired but I'm working, yeah

What it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be quite alright

And what it all comes down to
Is that I haven't got it all figured out just yet

And what it all boils down to
Is that no one's really got it figured out just yet

And what it all comes down to my friends
Is that everything's just fine fine fine

Thursday, November 1, 2007

Moving to New York City :-)

So, I've moved out of SF, and am home for a few months at my parents. But I am no longer moving to LA. I am moving to New York City :-) LA was the right decision for me out of the options I was giving myself. But my #1 option since I was 16 has been NYC.

My NY decision:
I've wanted to live in NY since I was 16. It's always been "too far, too big a jump, too hard, too scary" and I'm no longer going to let that stop me from going.
LA was the best decision for me out of the options I was giving myself. But the NY option, my more passionate option, was always sitting on the backburner, And it's time to make that dream a reality. I may go to LA one day, but I'm not thinking about that right now. Right now, I want to live in NY. It's the best time in my life for me to do that. I'm young, single, and I'll do plenty of film there. Sure it's nothing compared to film in LA, but I'd rather live in Manhattan and do film 50% of the time than live in LA and do film 100% of the time. Plus, LA is so spread out that people dont drive to see each other after they've been commuting daily for work. People stay in their areas (ex: you live in Santa Monica, you hang out in Santa Monica). I know this from friends who live there. It's not like the bay area where people drive all over to meet up. I want to be in a city where you can take the subway and cover Manhattan in what, 30mins? Definitely not 2 hours of LA traffic. I want to be surrounded by tons of people and where the city is alive, not so spread out by highways like LA.
NY is what I want right now in my life. If it changes in a few years, I'll go to LA. The thing is, there are two cities for film, LA and NY. And I loved living in SF, which is just like NY, except NY is 10 times bigger. But the way SF is set up, 7x7, the city is alive, the type of people, and people are everywhere, and I love that. I like a lot of people together in a small physical area but in a big city.
And also I realized, once you live on your own anywhere, like I did in SF, living with roommates, learning to pay bills, how to be and do things on my own, etc, and now i'm prepared to live anywhere. Once you've lived on your own and can do it, then it prepares you for any city. And sure I may hate NY, so then I'll come back to SF or LA. Probably LA cause of film. But it's like, what's the worst that could happen? I hate NY, I'll go to LA. If I love NY, I'll stay there. But if I dont go, I'll always regret it. Always wonder. What if. What would it have been like. What could have happened. What if I loved it so much and wanted to settle there. And right now is the best time and point in my life to go. And so I am! I’m a tough girl. I can do it!

Saturday, October 27, 2007

Halloween party & deer on the highway

So last night, we were driving back from our friend's Halloween party at his apt in Emeryville. Three of my friends and I dressed up as the four Zodiac elements - we each represented our own sign's element, so I was water as I am a Pisces. On the way home, I was driving on highway 280 with two of my friends in the car. It was about 5am. At one point, I put the highbeams on because the highway was really dark and there were no other cars on the road. All of a sudden, I saw something up ahead, partly in our lane. It was a deer! I swerved around it, into the other lane. Half an hour later, I was still in shock and thanking God that I was awake and alert enough to swerve around the deer, chillin halfway in our lane on the highway at 5am! We were near woods so probably why the deer was there, but not sure why it was crossing the highway. All I know is that our car would have been totaled, and I don't know what condition the three of us would have been in. I know other people who have hit deer before and their car was totaled. And I am not sure if they were driving the 80mph that I was driving.
I am SO thankful that I am alive! And that our car is in one piece too!!! Phew!!!





Monday, October 8, 2007

song of the moment & how I'm feeling

Jewel "Good Day"

(SHE IS SO AMAZING LIVE! REALLY TALENTED!!!)




I say to myself, as I smile at the wall, just let myself fall

It's gonna be all right, no matter what they say
It's gonna be a good day, just wait and see
It's gonna be OK, cause I'm OK with me
It's gonna be, it's gonna be

As long as we laugh out loud
Laugh like we're mad
Cause this crazy, mixed up beauty is all that we have
Because what's love but an itch we can't scratch, a joke we can't catch
God, but still we laugh

Monday, October 1, 2007

Change

We either adapt to change, or we get left behind. And sometimes, the more things change, the more they stay the same. It hurts to change, but sometimes change can be really good.
~Greys Anatomy

Last days living in San Francisco

Last week of work: Butterfly toast, champagne gift, coffee with Karyn and Megs, taking pictures with everyone, toast to me at Scott Howard on last day

Last Friday night in SF: toast with roommates and friends at home, slept at 2am

Last night in SF (Saturday): wine toast with bff and Emily roomie- to wonderful memories of my life in SF and new memories and life in LA! North Beach with bff and Megs, toast out on the town - last night living in the city! Slept at 4am...

Sunday morning moving out.....

Summing up how I am feeling......
Walk On - U2



And if your glass heart should crack,
And for a second you turn back
Oh no, be strong

Walk on, What you got, they can't steal it, No they can't even feel it

Walk on, Stay safe tonight

You're packing a suitcase for a place, None of us has been, A place that has to be believed, To be seen

A singing bird, In an open cage, Who will only fly, Only fly for freedom

Walk on, What you got, They can't deny it, Can't sell it or buy it

And I know it aches, How your heart it breaks, And you can only take so much
Walk on

Leave it behind, you've got to leave it behind

Home
I can't say where it is
But I know I'm going

Thursday, September 27, 2007

look at my imdb page today!

Woohooo!!! So awesome :-)
STARmeter:
^ 2,641% since last week

and Karyna posted on my IMDB message board:
Anisha Bhagat is the next big thing. Watch out Hollywood! Here she comes!

haha i love you! She's my biggest fan :-) Karyna kept checking the site for my name and page forever! She initially found me on IMDB before I found my page! And she is the one who told me! hahaha muah!

Saturday, September 22, 2007

My IMDB and credits!

The Internet Movie Database (IMDB) is the biggest entertainment database in existence. It has info on anyone and anything in the entertainment industry. For as long as I can remember, I've been researching that site for film classes, papers, and mostly personal interest. My first goal and dream on my road to Hollywood fame and fortune was to be credited and get my own page. That gets you on the industry radar, and makes you legitimate. And now, after working on a few film sets, my first credit has been posted! It's my first stepping stone, and just the beginning of so much more to come! I am ECSTATIC!!!

From the main site, www.imdb.com, type in my full name, Anisha Bhagat, it pulls up my page (I have 3 pictures on there). Or the direct site is http://imdb.com/name/nm2759622/

In addition to these credits, on google, another one of my credits pops up that is not yet on imdb:
Martin Lawrence Presents: 1st Amendment Standup Television show .....Anisha Bhagat. Production Assistant (at the bottom of the page with the heading for my part of the crew: Below the Line)
http://tv.yahoo.com/martin-lawrence-presents-1st-amendment-standup/show/41648/castcrew

Oh and I am moving out of San Francisco next week, to San Jose for a few months, and then moving to Los Angeles in January, to do the Hollywood thing :-) IM SUPER EXCITED!!!

Monday, September 10, 2007

the hardest thing

I think that when we are living and working somewhere, it's hard at first, as beginnings always are, scary, hard, but then we get used to it. It becomes a routine, and something familiar. Then soon we are liking it, even loving it - work, roommates, house, city, so then when deciding to move or take a new job or be in a new city, that is another new beginning, and again, it is hard, scary, and I think that is what I am feeling right now. The sense of being comfortable and liking where I am, the city, my roommates, my coworkers, my friends, my job, and moving to LA, a new city with new roommates and friends and work, it's scary, and it's making me nervous, anxious, and a little stressed.

I think it comes down to, when we are to deviate from what we are comfortable with, take a big step out of our comfort zone, take a risk, a leap, a chance, it is scary. It is nervewracking. It makes me anxious, and stressed. But I made this decision over the course of a few months, and sat on the decision for weeks before making it final. And I feel happier and more excited each day that it gets closer to that decision to take place, but at the same time, as the time approaches to leave my comfort zone in SF, it is also scary and stressful. But I made the decision, and I am sticking to it because I know I made the right now, and while it's hard now to leave what I know, love, and am comfortable with, it would be even harder to do that months or years from now when I am even more deep rooted here with work, home, friends, roommates, etc. And my LA decision is one that will be the best for me long term on all levels and areas, esp work.

At least I recognize that the hardest thing is to break away from what we are most comfortable with, and often times, we give up what we want to really do because it's scary, and we'd rather do what we are comfortable doing, being, living, etc.

It's sink or swim time. And I plan to swim. All the way.

Monday, August 27, 2007

fav song of the month

Lifehouse "First Time"



We're both looking for something

We've been afraid to find
It's easier to be broken
It's easier to hide

Looking at you, holding my breath
For once in my life I'm scared to death
I'm taking a chance letting you inside

I'm feeling alive all over again
As deep as the sky under my skin
Like being in love, she said, for the first time
Maybe I'm wrong, I'm feeling right
where I belong with you tonight
Like being in love to feel for the first time

The world that I see inside you
Waiting to come to life
Waking me up to dreaming
Reality in your eyes

Looking at you, holding my breath
For once in my life I'm scared to death

I'm taking a chance letting you inside

I'm feeling alive all over again
As deep as the sky under my skin
Like being in love, she said, for the first time
Maybe I'm wrong, I'm feeling right
where I belong with you tonight
Like being in love to feel for the first time

We're crashing
Into the unknown
We're lost in this
But it feels like home

I'm feeling alive all over again
As deep as the sky that's under my skin
Like being in love, she said, for the first time
Maybe I'm wrong, I'm feeling right
where I belong with you tonight
Like being in love to feel for the first time

Like being in love she said for the first time
Like being in love to feel for the first time

Tuesday, August 21, 2007

awards

"Solitude," the film I worked on as a Production Assistant for the 48 Hour Film Fesitival, one of the producers called last night to inform us that our film took 3 awards in the festival/competition. We tied for best cinematography (the overall look and shots/angles of the film), best sound design, and best original score. I AM ECSTATIC!!!!!!!!!!

Great pic of me from the screening & premiere:

http://www.flickr.com/photos/immaterialgirl/1190093011/in/photostream/

Thursday, August 16, 2007

Our film screening for 48 hour film festival!

Hey y'all,
Last weekend I worked on a film shoot for the 48 Hour Film Project Festival. This festival and competition is held in numerous cities each year, like San Francisco's was last month, but I worked on a film for submission at the San Jose festival. There are two nights of screening at Camera 12 (independent theater on 2nd street) in downtown San Jose.
The total teams & films in the competition are split between two nights, Wed and Thurs, and our film is screening in the set of films on Thursday night (today Aug 16th) at 7pm and 9:30pm, same screenings each time, so more films than just ours. Each film is a maximum of 7 minutes, and follows the guidelines, genre, prop, etc that we were given to each team of filmmakers (everyone had something unique) at the kickoff last Friday and turned in at film drop off location on Sunday (aka 48 hours :-)

I will be at the 7pm screening, as both the 7pm and 9:30pm screenings are exactly the same at both times. Come support our independent film! Woohooo! If you are free, in the area, and want to go, let me know, email or call me, and I'll give you details.

I think one of the coolest things ever is going to a movie screening and buying a ticket for your own film! Now THAT is AWESOME! :-) Hope you can come out and support!

Here is the website if you want to check it out: http://www.48hourfilm.com/sanjose/

And our film is listed under Group B: Chula Vista Entertainment, Alex Potter

And if you come tonight, do get there early or buy tickets ahead of time! It's supposed to sell out! woohoo!!
xoxoxo

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

moving to LA

advice from my housemate, new chapter, my thoughts and feelings, taking a risk, always regret it, always will have fear or nervousness but just have to jump no matter how tough Hollywood is, sink or swim.

cookies

sugar free oreo cookies are gross. better to eat the real thing less often. some sugar free stuff is not bad at all. these were uneatable. eww gross! things with splenda are good. things with aspartame are bad for you.

off to the usual work, gym, friends awesomeness of my weekdays :-)

Friday, August 10, 2007

The 48 Hour Film Project

I'm working as a Production Assistant this weekend on my friend's film he is directing for the 48 hour film project festival in San Jose. We start Friday night, today, and end Sunday night, having written, shot, and edited a 7 minute maximum short film, and submitted it in to the festival. It will be judged on many different categories, and there are 14 awards given, so we are hoping to get one! There will be two days of screenings at Camera 12 in downtown San Jose, Wednesday the 15th and Thursday the 16th, 7 & 9:30pm. Our film is in the Thursday set of screenings. I am very excited for this creation we are about to make in less than two days from start to finish! We will literally pick our genre tonight, find out what props/lines are to be used creatively in our film, and it will be the beginning of 48 hours of no sleep, but we can always sleep later :-)

I love being on set. There's just this feeling, everytime I start working on a film shoot, no matter if 1 day or 2 weeks, whether the crew is big and famous from LA, a student thesis film with an NYU crew, film festivals and competitions, or small, personal films for my friends and I, it doesnt matter. Being on set is just AMAZING and SO FUN! I prefer the smaller, more personal sets, where we all eat together, sleep on set together (the little sleep that we do get) but it's so fun because it's so much more personal! Instead of working on a big, famous set, like the Martin Lawrence produced project I did last fall, where we know most of the crew, mostly just by name, and are close to very few people, usually those you are working directly with, and then at the end of the day, we all go home, and report back at crew call time. But on small shoots and crews, we all stay together, rooming in hotel rooms if the location is out of town, or sprawled all over the director's living room, sleeping when we can, eating all the time, and just having a total blast and general good time, no matter how busy we are or how hard we all work, the end product makes it totally worth it, but the steps we took to get there are memories for life :-)


I remember once in college when I worked on a grad student's film, I had been up most of the night doing work and helping with the script and location, so the next morning, when the actors had their call, i took a nap, literally in the hallway of the set, with people walking over me, and I was snuggled up in my blanket, catching a few zzzz's. :-)

Talk about the great memories!

Thursday, August 9, 2007

in love

I want to be in love. Don’t most people? But as wonderful as it is, it’s also scary. Makes me hesitant to enter into that stage, that relationship, and commitment on all levels, physically, mentally, and mostly emotionally. But it’s still worth it. Every relationship, friendship, family, whether 3 weeks, months, years, or lifetimes, you learn, you grow, you discover, you treasure, and make incredible memories, and while there are good times and bad, it’s all worth it. It is true – Better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all…..just that experience of love and being in love, no matter what kind of love, a friendship, a family, a romantic one, a deep soul touching love….the experience and life’s lessons make it all worth it, whether it lasts just for today, or for forever.

Sunday, August 5, 2007

Thoughts on career loves

When you love doing something and working on something SO much that you dont care what the pay is or who you're working with or that you are sleeping with camera equipment in your hotel room, and that makes you even more excited....well then you know what you want to spend your life and career doing :-) So I'd say I have a pretty good idea hahah! I think you have to find a combination of what you love and what you are good at - and that is what will stick and have you enjoying your career and life!

Friday, July 20, 2007

earthquake!

Who's room was shaking at 4am?

MINE WAS!!

Is it just me, or are a lot of these happening recently....like in clusters, but more often....

oooooooo

scary :-/

P.S. Happy Friday :-)

According to a preliminary report from the U.S. Geological Survey, the earthquake registered 4.2 on the Richter Scale and occurred at 4:42 a.m. The quake was centered 2 miles east-northeast of Oakland's city-center. The last time an earthquake of similar size hit the Bay Area was March 1, when a 4.2 magnitude quake originated in Walnut Creek.